Today is Monday and as I am sitting in my office working I am constantly praying for my wife. Cindy is once again experiencing the dreaded side effects of chemo. Her body is aching all over and ever movement brings a sign of pain to her face. I wish that I could do more, but there is nothing I can do to rid her of the pain.
It is very difficult seeing someone you love have to go through such agony. I sit looking at my computer screen and think how our lives have changed. I wish we could turn back the calender six months and pretend that this was all a bad dream. But unfortunately it is not and Cindy, I and the girls have to continue to live with the reality of what is happening in our lives.
I sit looking out the window of my office and wonder "Why?" If only I could get an answer to the "why" then maybe I would feel better. But then I say to myself "Will getting my "why" answered really make things better." And of course the answer is NO!.
All I can do as I sit here is pray. And so I pray! I call out to the God who made the heavens and earth. I shout out to the God who redeems us in Jesus Christ. I plead with the Holy Spirit to show his presence to us. I pray for healing, I pray for perseverance, I pray for grace and strength, I pray for my wife....my beautiful wife who I love so dearly....I pray for my children...I pray for......................
God please be with us, God shower us with your grace, God show your friendly face to us....God be near to my wife and my children.....
All I can do is pray....
Stephen
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Hi Steve. Our hearts go out to you and Cindy. I know you know all the right words and the way we are supposed to think about our 'challenges,' but there comes a time when we have to totally surrender it all to Jesus, doesn't there? Therein lies the tough one. What does that actually mean? Gilles feels the same as you do, Steve. I know he does. When I hurt physically, I know he hurts in his heart for me just as you do for your sweet Cindy. That is what 'being one' means I suppose. Love her and follow your heart. God will give you the strength to get through this. And you will see the plan that God has for you all. There is nothing wrong with you feeling the way you do; in fact it is just right. You have an amazing outlook, Steve. Praying is the most wonderful thing you can do for Cindy and the girls. And then such is the power of God revealed to do mighty things through our prayers. We join with you as you pray for Cindy. She really is a gem. Bless you and watch the sun tomorrow morning. Like God, it never ceases to shine on a single day. Hugs, and prayers from Drayton to Goderich. Glynis
We are all praying for you too Steve. We pray for you all!!! You two need to give eachother a hug, look in eachothers eyes and say together "That's from Denise." Hey, then take a pic and post it in memory of me!! :)
PS Congrats to Glynis!
Love you lots,
Denise
Hi Steve,
I found Cindy's blog through Glynis and I just wamted to let you know that you have someone in Saint Cloud Fl praying for you guys. God never give's us more than we can handle and I know that he will see you and your family through this time.
Sending you many blessings...
Kia
Hi Steve,
We are praying for Cindy, you and the girls. The why in life is always hard to understand. My leg is getting it's strength back. I can walk better each day. Say hi to Cindy and the girls for me.
I love you.
Anita
Hi Steve and Cindy:
Kevin and I are both thinking about you and pray that Cindy's agony will soon come to an end. Send our love to the girls too.
:) Melissa
I am sorry to hear that Cindy is in so much pain.
Know that I am thinking about all of you and keeping you in my prayers.
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