Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Good Morning Everyone:

Well another week is moving along quickly. At the Tamming household things are busy. With school and after school activities are days are full. On Monday after school we had to go to a cross country meet for Nicole. We had a great time watching the children run the races. Then yesterday evening Nicole had GEMS at the church. She is really enjoying being a part of this group of girls.

Well Cindy is doing much better this week. Her energy is back and she is not experiencing the pain that she did last week. It is in these times that we as a family can feel normal again. In the past we often have taken things for granted, but now we thank God for the days and the weeks between treatment that we can have normal time.

Though Cindy is feeling better we always also know that the next treatment is coming. In just over a week Cindy will have to go to London again for her 7th treatment. But that is in a week so we will not dwell on it this week.

As a family we just want to say thank-you to all the people who have been so helpful to us. Last week the meals and the help at home was so much appreciated. We are so blessed to have a community that cares for us and helps us during our difficult times.

Well this Friday evening we are going to my parents in Strathroy. My whole family will be there to celebrate my Mom's birthday. It will be a great to spend with my brother and sisters and to see my nieces and nephews. Anyways MOM "Happy Birthday".....(this year I didn't forget)

Well may everyone of you have a great day. The Fall is here but the weather is great. Enjoy these days cause we all know that it won't be long until the snow arrives.

Blessings
Stephen

Saturday, September 20, 2008

The week is almost over and what a week it has been. Although it began not the most pleasantly but is finishing off quite nicely.

First, the boring news report. I was in a lot more pain than I anticipated. But as the week passed so did the pain. It was a good to have my parents here for a few days. Aside from Stephen, if anyone was to be a witness to my state, it was comforting to know that it was my mom and dad. Although I must admit that it is hard to be in pain and have a loved one watch and be completely unable to do anything about it. We will be able to put this one in the memory books as a moment of family time shared even though the pains of life.

On a brighter note. This week was a big change in the Tamming household. All three children are now in school. Sarah began her educational career for the first day on Friday. Just like most parents' story about the day the youngest sets off for school, ours is no different. Stephen and I planned and did walk the girls to school. When the bell rang, we brought Sarah to the kindergarten door, gave her hugs and kisses and watched her confidently walk into the school. But this is not how Sarah thought that her first day should go. At dinner the night before, she declared to us that we did not need to take, Nicole and Meagan could walk her - every parent's dream, right?. As we left the schoolyard to return home, Stephen mentioned that it was nice to finally have one child who did not cry when you left home at school. I just smiled and thought "That's our Sarah!"

Meagan turned seven this week. It truly is amazing how quickly time passes and how they do grow up way too fast. To celebrate, she had a party today with a few friends - Emma, Kijana, and Kylie. Meagan had wanted her party to include a craft called a friendship bracelet since she was going to spend time with all her friends. Here was her artistic nature coming out combined with the sweet sensitive side. Later, we had to chuckle as encouragement amongst the friends continued while they are trying to break open the pinata. As one girl was striking the pinata, the others chanted "GO GIRLFRIEND, GO GIRLFRIEND." It was a couple of hours filled with just "girlfriend" time.

This is just a snippit of the week. I am hoping that next week will be just or even more eventful than this one, but a lot less painful.

Cindy

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

The Week Continues

Well today is Tuesday and the week is slowly moving along. The last two days have not been easy for Cindy. The pain she is experiencing has been very difficult. You can see the expression of pain on her face.

We are so thankful for our church family that has brought us meals. What a true blessing they are.

I am also grateful that Cindy's parents have been here for the last two days. I know that for some having their in-laws spend two or three days with them might be difficult.....however their love, support and help is so wonderful. Our children also love having grandma and grandpa around. Sarah actually had the opportunity to spend the day with them at the International Plowing Match.

As for me I have been busy with church stuff. Trying to write sermons. Tomorrow I have to go to a meeting in Collingwood. It will probably last all day. So it will be a long day.

Last week I read something from Rick Warren the author of "A Purpose Driven Life". He said
"I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a dark time, then you got to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don't believe that anymore. Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life. No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on. And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for. You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems. If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness, "which is my problem, my issues, my pain." But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others."

This is so true. To get through this time Cindy and I often think of the blessing that God has given us.
The blessing of three beautiful daughters
The blessing of the love we have for each other
The blessing of family
The blessing of our church family
The blessing of friends that call and help
The blessing of beautiful weather
The blessing of Jesus and his love and grace
The blessing of laughter

So many good things to think about and smile and be thankful for....

Well have a great remainder of the week

Stephen

Monday, September 15, 2008

Ready For Round Two?

Well, it is round two with the side effects of Docetaxel, two more to go. And as some like to call it, the "battle" continues. I am beginning to experience another element in the "battle" that I had not up until now. This time on a more physical level. Up until the last round of chemo I have had little side effects that would knock me out. Not so with the Docetaxel. With this round, like last month, the side effects are posing to put up a good fight. Yesterday the pain began to ache throughout my joints and the sore throat is back again. I am glad that I was given some more meds to ward off the pain but I am looking forward to about Friday when it is over for another time.

It is during this time that I realize that I have put a lot of trust in the doctors, medical field, and the treatments that are available. But as I was awoken several times throughout the night due to the aches, there were a couple of verses that came to mind late last night - Proverbs 3: 5-6 and Exodus 15:2. These two passages are dear to my heart because the first is our wedding text and the second is inscribed on a bracelet I received from my dear friend, Lisa, just before this "battle" began. I may never know why this "battle" needs to take place now but I do know that God is teaching me something. There have been constant and consistent times in which God has whispered gently these verses over the past four months and I am learning from Him. He continues to draw my attention, my trust, and my strength, even during this "battle", back to where I need to focus - ONLY ON HIM.

Cindy

Sunday, September 14, 2008

The Week Has Begun

Well it is Sunday the first day of the week. It is going to be a long week for Cindy. She is already feeling the side effects of her last session of chemo. The pain in her joints is becoming more intense and the expressions on her face says it all. But even in the midst of her pain she still attempts to do things. This afternoon I caught her doing the laundry. When I told her to let me do it, she insisted on continuing. She tries to stay upbeat. I marvel at how brave she is, and how she is able to handle these difficult times.

Today Cindy did not go to worship. She stayed home to rest. Since I was at church getting ready for the service Helen V came and picked up the girls. We are so grateful to Helen for helping us out. It is times like these that we feel the love and support of our church family.

Well tomorrow is a big day since it is Meagan's Birthday. It is hard to believe that she is turning seven. I can still remember the day she was born. As you can see she is our blond beauty. She is such an amazing girl. Her imagination and her caring nature are a gift from God.

As you go through this week please keep Cindy in your prayers. Pray that the pain may not be too intense. Pray that the drugs may kill the cancer. Also pray for our girls. Pray that they understand that their Mom will need rest this week.


Till next time
Stephen

Friday, September 12, 2008

Sixth Treatment Down With Excitement!!!

Well, Stephen has beat me to reporting the excitement of yesterday's treatment. But I will write it out for you to read from my perspective.

I was not looking forward to this sixth treatment because I was anticipating the next week's unpleasant side effects but I was ready to get it done. But I did not anticipate the excitement that was about to happen today.

Denise was the lucky one to accompany this treatment and we should have know from the way our day became it was going to be quite eventful. We started off at 6:50 am on our way to the cancer clinic in London. It was a nice leisurely drive with a quick stop in Lucan at the Tim Horton's for a bagel to go. Denise had gone into order and three times had to come and ask what I would like because all my favourites were not available. I had to settle for the cinnamon and raisin -- it was quite a disappointment to my not such cooperative taste buds. But at least it was some nourishment to down with the meds I needed to take prior to the treatment. From then into London, we were behind several slow cars, construction, and every possible light we had to stop at.

The doctor's visit was once again encouraging, with things progressing as they hoped. The side effects are what I should expect and then it was on to have chemo.

When we got into the chemo ward, we were settled in to a lazy-boy next to Glynis. From my second chemo treatment until yesterday, Glynis has become a familiar face in a neighbouring chair.

Nurse Elly hooked me up with the iv. That went not too bad except for the horrible black and blue bruise I am now donning. Then Elly got the meds going and placed on the ice slippers, one mitten, and was working on the second. I was involved in conversation with the nurse, Denise and Glynis and was beginning to feel "Not so good!" It was not until the nurse drew my attention by asking "If I was alright?" did I realize that I was not. Suddenly four nurses swooped in out of nowhere with two emergency kits containing reaction medicines. The chemo meds were stopped and benidryl was administered and some other meds I can't remember. My blood pressure and oxygen level was closely monitored, and my RED face was closely scrutinized. All I wanted to do was sleep but was a little afraid to until Elly said it was okay to give into the sleep it was just the reaction to the benidryl. This took about 3/4 of an hour to get me settled down and then the chemo was restarted. This time with no reactions.

To pass the rest of the time Denise entertained me with a Christmas quiz from the Reader's Digest. We both failed miserably, but we both have to say that the Christmas questions are not about the true Christmas story that we have both to love and believe. It was most enjoyable having beat her by one more correct answer.

Leave it to my sister to take the camera out, well actually my cellphone, and capture the Kodak moments. Denise was a little disappointed that she did not capture the nurses swooping in but she did get some of the excitement with two nurses monitoring me near the end of the reaction.

Oh and here are a few "lovely" pics of the dough girl just for your entertainment. Not my best photos but just so you can visualize what it is like for me.........

Cindy received another treatment yesterday. It did not go as well as the previous 5. She had a reaction to the chemo medicine and had to receive some other medication to stop the reaction. I will let her tell you what happened.

This weekend will be busy. I have a wedding to officiate. Tonight I have the rehearsal and tomorrow afternoon is the ceremony. Then on Sunday I have two services to lead. So like I said a busy weekend.

The girls are enjoying their new school. Each morning they are excited to go and see their friends. This morning we allowed them to walk to school on their own. This was a big step for us as parents.

Sarah will begin school next week Friday. She is excited about beginning school. Each morning we have to tell her how many more sleeps until school.

Last night I signed the girls up for figure skating. I was hoping that they wanted to play "Hockey" but that is not the case. I am still excited about seeing them on the ice and doing what figure skaters do.

We truly are back in the "Rhythm of Life." And as I go about my day I think how truly blessed Cindy and I are. We have three beautiful daughters, a family that loves us, friends that encourage us, a church family that supports us, and a God who walks and lives with us. Truly Blessed.


Just a note to Denise. Thanks for taking Cindy to London yesterday. You are an amazing sister and sister-in-law. We love yeh!

Well got to run

Stephen

P.S. I hope (for one or two persons) that the spelling and grammar is alright.....

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

The Rhythm of Life

Well, we have finally gotten back into the rhythm of what September brings. By this I mean that we are back into the daily schedule of getting ready for day, school or work or home life, coming home from where we have been for the day, homework, supper, and bedtime routine and for Steve off to the nightly meetings. Yes, back to the busyness of school and church life. How sweet life is! I must say that it is nice to have a new routine to think about. Although as a family we have adjusted to the three week routine of chemo treatment, its side effects, a good two weeks, and then start all over again, I must say that this "September" rhythm of life is the much more loved rhythm in our lives.

While it was good to finish the first week of school and see that we have adjusted well. It was also great to be back with our "church" family at Trinity. How wonderful it was for me to sit in the front pew once again and worshipping our God together. How my soul was lifted in praise by the aid of the music led by the worship team. How great it is to meet God through praise and prayer with His people in Trinity. What a wonderful element to add to this "September" rhythm of life. I just have to praise God!

The rhythm of my chemo treatments will begin again on Thursday. While I am excited that I will only have TWO more to go, I am very apprehensive about the week to follow. I hope that maybe some "good" drugs can be prescribed or that the effects may not be so bad. For this I covet your prayers - that I will not be too anxious, that while the chemo will work tremendously in my body its side effects are minimal, and that I will continue to find God's goodness in the rhythm of what life brings.

To that end I must sign off, and get some much need sleep.......
Cindy

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Hello everyone just a quick note to tell you that i think you can now leave comments. I have changed some of the settings so I hope it will allow you to leave a comment now.


Have a great sunday worshipping our amazing God with all his people.


stephen

First Week of School

Well, the first week of school is now finished for Nicole and Meagan. Sarah was a little disappointed that she has to wait til the 19th to begin.


It was a good start for the girls. I think that it is often more difficult on parents wondering how they will adjust to new surroundings, a new teacher, and a new grade. The first day, the children were surrounded by a number of anxious parents awaiting the entry of the kids into the school for the morning assembly. Each one was wondering who their teacher would be and which classroom they would be in. Anxiety and anticipation filled the air.

Now we are getting back into the swing of the schedule of the daily routine of school. This change in school has allowed for a quite a difference in our family life at home. One of the biggest is that the mornings are more relaxed and provide an opportunity to start the day off better. We have made a committment to use this additional time as a family discovering God in his Word. We know now that we will need to take a more active role in the instruction of our girls and we can't wait to see what the Lord will do with this.

We hope that the girls will do well this year in their new grades. Meagan's day is a lot more focused on languages. Reading and writing is going to be the focus of the day. I hope that she will develop a love for reading - an opportunity for her to use the imagination that she has been blessed with. Nicole is learning French for the first time. I loved learning this language and it is funny to listen to her attempt to remember and speak in a new tongue.

For Stephen, it is back to work and right into the swing of things. His first week back and two sermons to prepare once again. The meetings have begun once again - three evenings this week and there was a holiday in there. It is back to making sure that our dinner hour is a time to enjoy each other, catch up on the day's events, and share how good our God has been to us that day.

After the 19th all three girls will be in school every other day. I hope that I will not get too bored with all that time to myself. It will be a time in which I will be able to rest a bit more. I may actually be able to get at a few of the things, like the photo albums, I have left unfinished.

I am not sure what this new year will bring but look forward to it with great anticipation!!

Cindy

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Well I hope everyone is having a good week. I am back to work and trying to get my sermons ready for Sunday. Thought I would take a short break and write on the blog.

The girls started school this week. They are attending Robertson public school this year which is just down the road from our house. The first day was a little difficult since it was a new school. But we are glad that they have already made friends and are enjoying getting up in the morning and going to school. Sarah howeverwas a little disappointed cause she will not start JK until September 19. The school slowly bring the children in for JK and SK over the first several weeks.

As for Cindy, she is doing much better this week. The pain that she experienced after her last treatment is pretty much gone. So hopefully the next week will be good. Next week Thursday she will have her 6th treatment....that will mean she is 3/4 of the way through chemo. Hard to beleive that we are this far in the process already.

As for me, well like I said I am back at work. Trying to focus my mind which is not always the easiest thing for me.

Thanks for all your support, all your prayers,

stephen

Monday, September 1, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY

Today it is Cindy's 39th Birthday. Happy Birthday Sweety! I know that we have to face a tough year......but I love you so much and will walk with you each step of the way.

My prayer for you is this:

May our heavenly Father bless you Cindy
May our heavenly Father place his loving, merciful and healing touch upon you,
May our heavenly Father shine his Friendly face upon you each day this coming year....
And may our heavenly father grant you many more years so that I can love you more and more as we walk this road of life together.....

Jesus please heal her

Amen


Stephen

Some Pics

Hello it is me Stephen. Cindy already filled you in on our wonderful week at Forest Rock Camp. It was a time down memory lane. Our girls seemed to enjoy it. They even liked (or should i say screamed) as Dad drove really fast down the road that leads to Forest Rock. For those of you who have been there you will understand why they screamed.

Anyways it was a good week. I do wish that Cindy was feeling better. It was very hard to see my wife have to suffer so much.

Anyways I have put some pics of us at Forest Rock. Maybe it will bring some memories back for those of you who have been there. And as you can see the fishing was great...the weather was wonderful.....and the family time was amazing....I did see the goodness of God in each of these things.....


Have a good week....

Stephen