Today I had to undergone the dreaded annual mammogram. Although this is not my first, it is the first one since my diagnosis last year. It is funny to think about the saying that "time eases all things" by Sophocles. While a year has past, it does not take much to be brought back and overwhelmed by the resurgence of the feelings that you once experienced. While a whole year has expired, and at times it has felt like a lifetime has occurred, today it is was like yesterday.
After I offered up a prayer for strength and support, I talked myself into believing that "I could get through this one test". I walked into the mammogram department with as much confidence as I could muster very much aware of the nervousness that surged through my veins. I was determined to make it through the next test without reliving last year's events with tear-filled eyes. However that is exactly what occurred. While all I wanted to do was to have the excruciating squeezes done, I first needed to relay my past history and medicine journey since my last mammogram.
I now find myself in the precarious position of the "wait and see" game that I played last year at this time. I now find myself holding my breath a little bit waiting the results. I just hope and trust that God will grant me some comfort and strength to wait this one out.
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Hey Cindy...I know I don't have to
'teach' you this, but let me just remind you then to rest in the lap of Jesus and know that He is with you every step of the way and every moment you wait. It's that nasty wait time that is so nerve wracking, isn't it? Meanwhile, journey on with that positive mantra in your heart and trusting, trusting, trusting...Gilles and I prayed for you tonight (before I read your post...so God knew...)love you! Keep us posted x
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